I\u2019m so emotionally stretched out right now, but it\u2019s the purest feeling I\u2019ve had in a long time. I think the most important thing I\u2019m learning this year is what I love, what really matters to me. I\u2019ve got all these plans you know, and I think I\u2019m right about making them, but I\u2019m ready to be pulled away from them if I need to be. I\u2019m learning about tears and love, boundaries and longing, time and effort. Its hard just to understand yourself let alone the whole world. Some parts of me are healing, but the scars are there too, they shape who I am as much as anything, so I\u2019m not sorry. Theres so much, always so much, sometimes its overwhelming, but I feel calm right now. Today, in psychology I felt touched and understood in the midst of arguments, annoyance, passion, sadness, all our clamouring egos. I nearly cried from the force of it, and left class feeling shy and new, but validated. We can be such awkward creatures, can\u2019t we? It all made me sure of one thing, this project I\u2019ve been thinking about, it\u2019s the one, out of all the 100s of projects that flit through my mind, it\u2019s the one. It turns out that I\u2019m waking up, tuning in just as much as I\u2019m growing up, and maybe those things are more important right now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019m so emotionally stretched out right now, but it\u2019s the purest feeling I\u2019ve had in a long time. I think the most important thing I\u2019m learning this year is what I love, what really matters to me. I\u2019ve got all these plans you know, and I think I\u2019m right about making them, but I\u2019m ready […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[84],"class_list":["post-3744","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-perpetual-thoughts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3744","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3744"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3744\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3744"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3744"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tmblr.kamilah.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3744"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}