This is going to be the craziest two weeks ever! I just got back from a YAC meeting and the play is this week oh my oh my. There was a rehersal I didn’t know about until today and I just got home. There are dishes to wash and physics, calculus and psychology assignments to be done. Tomorrow the dress rehearsal starts at 5 and the day after there’s a matinée so I’ll miss all my classes. Mike and Katelyn beat me on the physics test (rawr) but at least I got an A. Soon I’ll need to start applying for schools and apply for more scholarships, but there are more pressing matters at hand. There is another physics test on Thursday, but Mr. Whalen is going to let me take it next week instead (thankyouthankyouthankyou). Theres also a Calc test next week, the big one on everything we’ve done so far this year. It’ll be are first grade and I want to do pretty much perfectly. I can take it on Tuesday instead thanks to having finished Math 12 last year (yes!) I also can’t forget theres a short piece I need to write for the next issue of Scratch, but that’s a way off. I’m excited to see Scratch again, it comes out by the end of the month. At least theres no school on Friday and my family is coming up for the play. Hopefully my aunt and cousin will come as well as my parents! I need to write to do lists, record dpa, and write some notes about this weekend in my agenda/book/thing before I forget too!

I hid candies in my clothes and various boxes and drawers and pockets months ago and I still find them every once in a while. Such a nice treat.

-drops things in crowded hallways

-sings when no one’s paying attention

-risks looking like a fool by trying hard

-isn’t sure what to say in awkward silences

-wants to be helpfull

-likes to paint

-loves fairytales

-believes in knowledge, compassion and effort

-feels deeply

-gives out second chances

-takes a lot of photographs

-wonders about things

-volunteers

-has big dreams

-isn’t always sure what she wants, or who she is

-needs touch

-feels spoken to by the way the light lands, poems and the outdoors

-believes in miracles

-wants to live without judgment, but isn’t there yet

-is sometimes afraid, sometimes sad, and sometimes awkward

-loves sparkly pens

-is afraid of snobby teenagers

-loves children

-means well

-is lazy sometimes

-has talents

-is becoming openminded

-has trouble keeping secrets, even her own

-is still unsure of herself

-believes in humanity

-changes her mind

-is constantly learning and growing

-writes her dreams down

-has a unique perspective

-grew up in a small town

-is trying things out

do you feel like you know me better now?

I’m cold again, and hungry even after my snack. I need to pack, and wash dishes, clean my room and cook. I need to do homework too. At least today went decently. I feel awake again, I feel okay about the play coming up. Physics sucked, I finished the test but there were these stupid questions about an elevator that weren’t about circular acceleration at all and I had no idea what to do. I feel awake again, but I still need some early nights this weekend. I’m frustrated that Kyle XY got cancelled for a boring, unoriginal show, I wanted to hear the rest of the story. I really want to see Where the Wild Things Are. Really, really badly. I feel like I’m catching up in Calculus, but my footings are still slipping in Physics. My psychology teacher is amazing. The acting teachers too! So much energy. My thoughts are a bit all over right now, it really bugs me that my room is a bit messy. I ate a pomegranate today. It was delicious, my favourite fruit of all time. The cheerleaders had a bake sale at lunch today, one of their posters said Cheeleaders, you’d think they’d be more careful with all the stereotypes there are already. In acting about 5 people played a game of hot potato…what was the potato? Dan. He doesn’t weigh that much, it was pretty hysterical. My aunt showed up at play rehearsal too! She gave me my birthday present and lots of hugs. It is hard living so far away from my family, I miss them.

I’m going to put RENT music on now and it’s going to put all the things I don’t understand, that feel wrong, better. I hope.

My music teacher is absolutely amazing. I actually really like all my teachers (since the art teacher gave me an apple when I was really hungry I’ve appreciated him much more). But my music teacher, he just seems so happy with where he is, it’s like he breathes in the music, that he lives in it. He looks so at peace conducting us. He’s such an inspiring guy, I hope I find the thing that makes me that happy one day.