Monthly Archives: October 2009

Just some observations

Sometimes just walking down the hall, I feel brave, just for looking at peoples faces, staring at their eyes, just because so few do. It’s tunnel vision to the extreme out there, and you can watch without being watched, because honestly, most of the time people don’t seem that interested in one another. I guess thats what made it easy for me, to find friends, fit in, stand out, because the vast majority of the population simply isn’t making much effort to stand out, to be noticed, to meet new people. People have their friends, and thats safe and easy, so why bother? I like to watch people, see sweet moments, happy ones. I like to see what you can learn from a glance, and who’s faces stick. There’s three couples on my stretch of hall, two who actually spend time there. In physics theres a boy who would make a great super hero in disguise in an obscure, kick-ass graphic novel. There’s the neon goth girl, in a mask of makeup, tall hair, and a collection of neon and black attire. There are timid grade 9 boys, cautiously walking girls to classes, lonely girls lost in the crowds, and bunch of boys laughing and pretending to fight one another.

I like people who break the rules, talk to people they don’t know, interact with teachers, admit what they like and don’t like, sing out loud and dance down the streets.

a lovely windy afternoon in this new home

shoepastryheart:

misterpeace:

moltingredleaves:samdesantis:(via sufferthejoy)

Please read Rascal by Sterling North.

I want a raccoon friend.

me too, i loved that book so much

I’m so emotionally stretched out right now, but it’s the purest feeling I’ve had in a long time. I think the most important thing I’m learning this year is what I love, what really matters to me. I’ve got all these plans you know, and I think I’m right about making them, but I’m ready to be pulled away from them if I need to be. I’m learning about tears and love, boundaries and longing, time and effort. Its hard just to understand yourself let alone the whole world. Some parts of me are healing, but the scars are there too, they shape who I am as much as anything, so I’m not sorry. Theres so much, always so much, sometimes its overwhelming, but I feel calm right now. Today, in psychology I felt touched and understood in the midst of arguments, annoyance, passion, sadness, all our clamouring egos. I nearly cried from the force of it, and left class feeling shy and new, but validated. We can be such awkward creatures, can’t we? It all made me sure of one thing, this project I’ve been thinking about, it’s the one, out of all the 100s of projects that flit through my mind, it’s the one. It turns out that I’m waking up, tuning in just as much as I’m growing up, and maybe those things are more important right now.

something

Sometimes sonmething takes me over so completely I can’t tell the difference between myself and itself. It could be a good song, or a person, or feeling, or a fallen leaf. It’s a kind of love and a kind of obsession, and its piercingly sweet, because its hard to share that kind of beauty.

I hope you know how much you mean to me.

A dear friend <3

A superior person cares for the well-being of all things. She does this by accepting responsibility for the energy she manifests, both actively and in the subtle realm. Looking at a tree, she sees not an isolated event but root, leaves, trunk, water, soil and sun: each event related to the others, and “tree” arising out of their relatedness. Looking at herself or another, she sees the same thing. Trees and animals, humans and insects, flowers and birds: These are active images of the subtle energies that flow from the stars throughout the universe. Meeting and combining with each other and the elements of the earth, they give rise to all living things. The superior person understands this, and understands that her own energies play a part in it. Understanding these things, she respects the earth as her mother, the heavens as her father, and all living things as her brothers and sisters. Caring for them, she knows that she cares for herself. Giving to them, she knows that she gives to herself. At peace with them, she is always at peace with herself.

The Rambling Taoist (via gardyloo)

We, as human beings aren’t separate from the environment, we are a part of it, and by destroying it, we could destroy ourselves