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something

Sometimes sonmething takes me over so completely I can’t tell the difference between myself and itself. It could be a good song, or a person, or feeling, or a fallen leaf. It’s a kind of love and a kind of obsession, and its piercingly sweet, because its hard to share that kind of beauty.

I hope you know how much you mean to me.

Today and Yesterday

I stayed up all night last night writing scholarship essays, so today went pretty rough. I came home early from school exhausted and out of wack . My friends were amazing, at helped me get home, and told all my teachers why I was gone. I’m going to learn from this, so I can do better in the future. Theres lots of challenges up ahead this year, but I’m a fighter, I’m not going to give up and I will get through. Sweet dreams.

Dreams

1) I dreamt that I was rolling down a hill, bright grassy hill and all was good. That was Tuesday night. The highlight of Wednesday was rolling down a grassy hill at club with Jane, It was actually really fun. Perfect steepness. Not too dizzy making.

2) Last night just as I fell asleep, in that half conscious state that is full unconscious until you’re jolted from it I dreamt that I was in a rainy car and I was a bit panicked but no one else was so it was okay. It was dark and everything was enclosed. It was sort of calm still. There was little, if any colour. There were gunshots and I was worried but no one else was, it was okay, this wasn’t real. I relaxed but a bullet hit the back window and glass flew at me, I saw a flash of white light and was violently jolted awake. Its a vivid memory, even though I fell back in to a deep sleep almost immediately. It was strange.

They see me roll on, my Segway!
I know in my heart they think I’m
white n’ nerdy!

What a good day

You know those days when everything goes right? For me, today was one of them. I didn’t even have to hurry for school this morning, and there was yoghurt,jam and maple syrup for breakfast and lots of food for snacks. I even found a dragonfruit melon juice box!

On the way to school I was singing, completely self absorbed because there weren’t many people around, and then realized that Erik was walking a quarter block ahead of me and ran to catch up. It’s always funner to walk with someone, especially when it’s cold out.

At school, Calculus, which I actually really like, was first and we watched a Shaun the Sheep video before continuing with limits. I got lots of funny quotes from Hamilton, as usual.

Psychology was up next. It was a working period and me and Claire chatted while we read about the evils of self-esteem and boot camp. I drew an overconfident swimmer with a duck that is destined to rule the world for my booklet.

Lunch! How can lunch ever be bad? Me and Jane ate foreign candy and reeses pieces |(in addition to our very healthy lunches.) Naomi, Erik, Courtney, Alysha and the rest of the gang were there.

In Physics Whalen gave us the whole class to work on the lab, even though he told us he wouldn’t give any more time yesterday. Its a tricky one and me and Mike both had lots of mistakes, but by comparing answers we were able to find and fix them (mostly, I still have a bit to finish up). Kaitlyn was writing Physics  = frowny face squared and her other equations for classes on Steph’s Math book, it was lots of fun. Also in Physics, Whalen called us up one by one to go over the homework. He said I was doing everything right and the diagrams were drawn correctly and it was neatly laid out so he could follow everything I was doing. Basically nice job, which was nice to hear in the midst of a complicated lab I kept having to go back in and rechecking numbers and equations in.

Art was after Physics. I was one of about three people with materials there for our latest Picasso project, a piece incorporating magazine/wall/construction paper for textures. I had a picture in my folder of a nice cowboy so I drew his face fairly big and cut out the shapes of some of the shadows out of dark blue and black pictures from national geographic. Lucky for me, the art teacher had opened brand new paints today, and he let me use them. I used a warm pallet and was almost finished when the bell rang.

After school me and mike went to hand in a poster he made for the Remembrance Day poster contest last year and I showed him my Picasso/Cowboy art. We ran in to Frank and Katie in the hall and all rushed to Choir so we wouldn’t be late. I do love singing. Today there were auditions for a solo in “Down to the River” which we’re preforming at an awards night on Monday (7:00 Key City, don’t be late!) Sopranos auditioned first (I’m 98% sure thats what I am now, at least I sit with them at practice and can hit all the notes). I went very first. I was a bit nervous but I thought it went okay. Some of my friends auditioned as well, and everyone sounded fantastic. Beuckert even told me I did well afterwards when we were talking, and thanked me for going first. 😀 Furthermore, we have a book of Christmas songs to learn that we’re going to preform with the symphony and a soloist who is coming on Friday to meet us. Also, we’re going to be on INTERNATIONAL television when we sing for the Olympic games. On Friday someone is coming to show us a catalogue of hats and scarves that are only made for Olympic performers. I’m so excited! Hopefully mom and I can go to Edmonton a little later so I can be there for the special guests.

After Choir there was a short break where we all refuelled (yay for second sandwich I shared with Claire  + muffin and carrot sticks) before diving in to the first read through for Treasure Island. For the most part I can see why people got the roles they did, with accents and emphasis people were embodying characters without even getting out of there chairs. I like the cast quite a lot already, and I had fun reading my lines as well as listening to everyone else’s. Since I am a ‘Gentleman’ a couple of my friends who are lady pirates are going to stick near me through the play. It’s going to be so funny, we were practising a bit and it was awesome fun. I was walking home, happily singing again, but Brenda stopped and gave me a ride home which was also nice.

The night was not over! I thought I would have a lot of Physics homework, but then I remembered the spare I have second block tomorrow, so I don’t have to worry. I went to dinner with Jordan and his friend and it was nice to just chat and eat food that we didn’t need to make first.

And I’m finished! If anyones to hear a long, detailed account of one of my days, this is the post to read.

Navigation

I have never had a good sense of direction, but I haven’t ever needed one either, after all, how can you get lost when you live in a town with one main street… When I moved I figured out how to get to school easily, follow 14th, until, well, you get to school. Today, however, my mission was to find a friends house, not to visit, but just to see if I could get there by myself. Its amazing how useful numbered streets are. Me and David Bowie (Dana’s dog) reached our goal, and made it home safe and sound as the sun set.

On another note auditions for Footloose were today! Hurrah! The process is far from over but it felt good to sing and act a bit. I didn’t get much acting in last year and I’d forgotten how fun it is! All us up and coming stars learned a part of the song footloose and then paired off to do a scene that goes something like this….

Girl: Do you want to kiss me?

Boy: Someday.

Girl: What do you mean someday?/Why not now?

(boy expresses that he knows girl has been kissed a lot and is afraid he won’t measure up)

I was lucky…I got to go first. 🙂 I think I did a good job, and it was fun to act with Frank. It was hilarious to watch all the deviations and interpretations of the other actors: aggressive girls, shy girls, mean boys, nervous boys, rude boys, insults, near kisses, and lots of laughter. It was also funny that there were around 3 times as many girls as boys so all the boys had 2 or 3 turns.

It’s time to watch my favourite show about show choir and eat some ice cream! goodnight!

Miss Vickies

Today has been a day of little pleasures. Chips, warm food, cute movie, cheerful banter, kind friends. The best part of the day was definitely choir. How I love to sing! To hear voices soaring, harmonizing. Together we make a deep rich sound, full of subtle layers. The choir is big, over a hundred people, and even the exercises are joyful. It’s good to feel a part of something. I could get used to this.

Onions

Hi, my name is Kamilah and this fall I moved away from home.

Now I live in a lovely little house with lots of plants, photographs, no television, a rubber chicken in a bikini, my friend Jordan and sometimes the dog David Bowie. Theres a big garden in the back, and a lawn in the front, and school is only a 20 minute walk away. I’m here for several reasons: I wanted to take Calculus, I needed to take Physics, I wanted to experience a bigger high school and I needed a change. However, I’m learning so much more than math and science. I’m learning how to sauté onions, how fast dishes pile up, how sweet garden carrots are cooked in soup, how to audition for plays, how to print photos and how to take care of myself, even if it means missing out sometimes.

I did, however, already know that onions make you cry.