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pine needle love

One of the art classes drew graffiti and had it up all over the walls, so I decided to give it a shot. Claire insisted I wasn’t filling the sections in right, and stole a pipe cleaner gift Ashely gave me so I let her help fill in white spots only she could see. Riz thought my colouring was just find and asked me to make her one afterwards. Caroline watched it all while eating chocolate from Sweet Gestures and drew mouths coming out of ankles, exclaiming that zombies are cute.

All in a day of art.

Today I sang

for the music teacher. He said I had a good ear and a good range. I sang a part of Cannonball, pretty well I believe, since my voice was warmed up from two hours of practising Christmas carols. He also asked me how I was doing, which is always nice to hear, and I’m happy to report all is well. I told him how happy I am to be in choir, but he said he already knew, I always look happy to be there. I’m getting very very excited for footloose, and hoping desperately for a singing part. Please please pleaseeee. In fact, I’m going to finish memorizing my lines for Treasure Island this weekend, to show my seriousness.

Wish me luck 🙂

Just some observations

Sometimes just walking down the hall, I feel brave, just for looking at peoples faces, staring at their eyes, just because so few do. It’s tunnel vision to the extreme out there, and you can watch without being watched, because honestly, most of the time people don’t seem that interested in one another. I guess thats what made it easy for me, to find friends, fit in, stand out, because the vast majority of the population simply isn’t making much effort to stand out, to be noticed, to meet new people. People have their friends, and thats safe and easy, so why bother? I like to watch people, see sweet moments, happy ones. I like to see what you can learn from a glance, and who’s faces stick. There’s three couples on my stretch of hall, two who actually spend time there. In physics theres a boy who would make a great super hero in disguise in an obscure, kick-ass graphic novel. There’s the neon goth girl, in a mask of makeup, tall hair, and a collection of neon and black attire. There are timid grade 9 boys, cautiously walking girls to classes, lonely girls lost in the crowds, and bunch of boys laughing and pretending to fight one another.

I like people who break the rules, talk to people they don’t know, interact with teachers, admit what they like and don’t like, sing out loud and dance down the streets.

a lovely windy afternoon in this new home

shoepastryheart:

misterpeace:

moltingredleaves:samdesantis:(via sufferthejoy)

Please read Rascal by Sterling North.

I want a raccoon friend.

me too, i loved that book so much

I’m so emotionally stretched out right now, but it’s the purest feeling I’ve had in a long time. I think the most important thing I’m learning this year is what I love, what really matters to me. I’ve got all these plans you know, and I think I’m right about making them, but I’m ready to be pulled away from them if I need to be. I’m learning about tears and love, boundaries and longing, time and effort. Its hard just to understand yourself let alone the whole world. Some parts of me are healing, but the scars are there too, they shape who I am as much as anything, so I’m not sorry. Theres so much, always so much, sometimes its overwhelming, but I feel calm right now. Today, in psychology I felt touched and understood in the midst of arguments, annoyance, passion, sadness, all our clamouring egos. I nearly cried from the force of it, and left class feeling shy and new, but validated. We can be such awkward creatures, can’t we? It all made me sure of one thing, this project I’ve been thinking about, it’s the one, out of all the 100s of projects that flit through my mind, it’s the one. It turns out that I’m waking up, tuning in just as much as I’m growing up, and maybe those things are more important right now.