Monthly Archives: February 2011

I have magnets.

Woahhh.

Oh look! Chinatown!

I just realized

I really miss conferences.

A lot.

I mean school is a lot of work and I’ve been finding some time for artsy stuff lately since I was lacking that last semester, and well physical activity is still not even in the attempted pile, but there are other things I miss too.

I really like school (except this week) and I like the network of friends I’ve built in my residence, through my program, from frosh week, and St. Paul’s but I miss the type of collaboration and projects that resulted from being involved in YAC and CBT. I mean, I really love graphic facilitation, conflict resolution, public speaking, leadership training, and having a group of friends who are into that sort of thing.

My friendships here are mostly built on inside jokes, friendliness and nerdy-ness. Which is great because I have a lot in common in different areas with these friends, mostly things falling in the nerd related spectrum such as BBT and excitement over astrophysics and SEMs, but also occasionally feminism and music and slam poetry.

God I love slam poetry.

So it’s like 1:30 in the morning and I’m not sure if I was getting to a point other than that different types of relationships with different types of people have different types of value that aren’t necessarily comparable and can be equally amazing. Variety is nice. There’s a lot of things I want to do and figuring out priorities is tricky because right now I feel like writing a lot, and in general lately I’ve wanted to do creative things but exams have taken priority (and sleep is taking priority now.)

OH YEAH I DID HAVE A POINT. I think one of the reasons I’m so enthralled by the whole nerdfighter movement and community is because I would like more of those types of connections with people right now. The projects and decreasing world suck and doing things for the sake of awesome and working together + nerdiness ad social awareness and music. It’s just so many things I love and it makes me want to get more involved building bridges with people like that on the internet. I mean, it’s revolutionary and brilliant and so so positive.

Excuse this being unedited.

BED TIME

domesticnoise:

This is nothing to brag about – in fact it should be mortifying but I finally got all the Christmas.Birthday presents organized, wrapped and packed up. I love gift making and sending so much that I seem to create a whole lot of pressure for myself and thusly a major block for getting gifts out remotely on time. It is horrible… and then I end up feeling dreadful about it and it takes some of the joy out of it. For the little people in my life I got the most awesome presents, a toque that has robots on it (!!) and a bear that matched the dress she wore to our wedding – a matching bear (!!) it was totally awesome… but it would have been far more awesome if the Christmas gifts had been there on time. Just another thing I can beat myself over… it is a very high priority for me and not something that is important to the husband thus it doesn’t get prioritized when I am doing the sick… and so it is shuffled to the back of the line and I feel horrible about it and get sick and the cycle continues. I need to unpack why I allow this to happen and what I can do to break the guilty cycle around “on time” present giving… if anyone has any insight I am all over that… because as of right now I am feeling guilt about getting it all done – I mean the presents are handmade, beautifully wrapped, from the heart and only 6 weeks late … I need to fucking lighten up…

Did I also mention that I am grappling with my mental health lately? Anxiety is through the fucking roof…

Personally I love getting gifts late.

I mean, it’s like the holidays are over and things are getting all normal again and then…

Present! Surprise!

I really do like this dress.

Oh the days of photo shoots in Jordan’s back yard…

also, mountains! WOW