Monthly Archives: November 2010

Oh the things I’ll do for P**5 points…

Happy Movember Everyone!

Today it snowed and I thought – ugh, cold and wet. And Thursday was tricky. But then I thought about the Christmas tree outside of Saint Paul’s, and eating dinner all together, with oranges after. Eating Christmas canes at two events in the same day and the girls listening to Christmas music and decorating our hall on a Friday night. So, when I finally went outside today and smelled the clean smell of snow, and my boyfriend pointed out the snowman he made, I thought, what’s the point of resisting this. Snow can be nice, Christmas is coming, and there’s no way to stop time.

Merry Christmas From Euphoria.

Whenever someone who knows you disappears, you lose one version of yourself. Yourself as you were seen, as you were judged to be. Lover or enemy, mother or friend, those who know us construct us, and their several knowings slant the different facets of our characters like diamond-cutter’s tools. Each such loss is a step leading to the grave, where all versions blend and end.

Salman Rushdie, The Ground Beneath Her Feet (via liquidnight) Thankyouthankyouthankyou for reminding me one of the reasons I like tumblr so much. It’s so easy to find feelings and thoughts, dreams and fears that are hard to articulate on here, written beautifully and simply.

thoughts and feelings mixed together in to a mission

When I say I want to live a hard life I’m being 100% truthful. I mean, I don’t really want to live a hard life in an everyday sense that I’d rather things fall in to place and be happy all the time and all. That’s all jolly good. But on a deeper, and more important level, I want to struggle. I want to feel things in extremes, do thing in extremes, shift the balance of my perspective so that I can see the beauty in every moment, so I appreciate all that there is that is good, so I recognize a need to fight against all that isn’t. I want a life that gives me a perspective so loud that I am compelled to act and think and learn, and create impact. Spend time on things with meaning. When I say I want to live a hard life I mean I want to live a meaningful, interesting, complex life, and that I believe that is impossible without challenges, barriers, difficulties to struggle against. All these things make you grow, reassess, learn, get better, and that’s what I want. So although I would love to watch tv and take easy classes and all of that, I don’t think those desires are as important or as strong as the ones that guide me to do more. To always always always be in motion. and then stop abruptly. To mix things up and do things that are scary and be foolish, which can really be a type of bravery. No I do not want to suffer, but I’m willing to for a good cause. I will cherish complications despite hurt and confusion they may cause. I will accomplish all of this, not by looking for trouble, but by always trying to do more, be more, by trying new things, exploring ideologies, trusting people too much, loving, loving, loving, and sometimes just being. This whirring in my head and heart is summarized nicely by a dear, dear man.

“Live life.” -Rod Osiowy

So now I’ve set myself this challenge. I hope it’ll keep me on track in a good way.

Link

The 30 Best Films of the Decade

I stumbled upon this list and was pleasantly surprised by a list that features some of my own favourites and movies I haven’t heard of before, including documentaries and foreign films. I’d like to check more of these out when I have the time (ha…silly engineering student)