When I say I want to live a hard life I’m being 100% truthful. I mean, I don’t really want to live a hard life in an everyday sense that I’d rather things fall in to place and be happy all the time and all. That’s all jolly good. But on a deeper, and more important level, I want to struggle. I want to feel things in extremes, do thing in extremes, shift the balance of my perspective so that I can see the beauty in every moment, so I appreciate all that there is that is good, so I recognize a need to fight against all that isn’t. I want a life that gives me a perspective so loud that I am compelled to act and think and learn, and create impact. Spend time on things with meaning. When I say I want to live a hard life I mean I want to live a meaningful, interesting, complex life, and that I believe that is impossible without challenges, barriers, difficulties to struggle against. All these things make you grow, reassess, learn, get better, and that’s what I want. So although I would love to watch tv and take easy classes and all of that, I don’t think those desires are as important or as strong as the ones that guide me to do more. To always always always be in motion. and then stop abruptly. To mix things up and do things that are scary and be foolish, which can really be a type of bravery. No I do not want to suffer, but I’m willing to for a good cause. I will cherish complications despite hurt and confusion they may cause. I will accomplish all of this, not by looking for trouble, but by always trying to do more, be more, by trying new things, exploring ideologies, trusting people too much, loving, loving, loving, and sometimes just being. This whirring in my head and heart is summarized nicely by a dear, dear man.

“Live life.” -Rod Osiowy

So now I’ve set myself this challenge. I hope it’ll keep me on track in a good way.